This seems to be the underlying theme when it comes to dating. You are either, or. Never both. And for me, I always seem to be the bug. Why can’t I be the windshield one of these days? Not that I want to be the windshield that flattens the bug, but it would be nice to be the one holding the cards. Then again, I don’t want to hold cards, b/c I don’t want to play games. I just want it to work out one of these days. I want to not be wanting it so badly to work out, also.
Maybe, that too, is my issue. I get too caught up in the new details, the new conversation, the new object that is filling the void… and then its *splat* when the void is once again empty. *sigh*.
I have learned from the last encounter with the windshield, however, that some people can easily be hypocrites until the right person comes along.
Its all friends and butterflies, until you realize that there is someone else that trumps you.
But, atleast I got my flashdrive back.
