Its been another day done, and I’ve only amassed 8 hrs of 30 for my goal of research work this week. Not cool. No motivation. No ambition. 8 hrs, with 5.5 of those hours happening on Tuesday. Thus, I sucked at working for the last 3 days. However, it seems I don’t suck when it comes to spending money. This is an unsustainable situation, as most of my life is when it comes to money.
Also. its 12:30 am and I’m awake. And sitting in front of the computer. I am now successfully hooked on the Brotherhood 2.0 (thanks, Monkey). And I am caught up to the current date. I’ve tried to go to sleep early tonight.. like 8pm. But maybe that was too early. B/c all that happened was that I had a cat/power nap and then have been up since 10. Shit.
Considering that I will soon be doing research on lobster, and having to be awake and chipper at 4am – I do not see how this schedule of mine is going to help the situation. Nor do I see how I’m going ot get out of it. Sher-Bear suggested I go for a walk about 8pm to tire myself out. Well, I did go for a 2.5 hr stroll downtown this afternoon, and it seemed to have worked, but just worked too early.
Tomorrow I must email my boss and tell him I did more hours than I really did. Then I must actually do alot of hours. Tomorrow is also the class end of term party, that I’m feeling rather indifferent about. Its suppose to start at 6:30 ish for a bbq/potluck.. but I’d rather not go that early. I’m still thinking about this.
And I still need to figure out how/what I’m going to do about next week. I have a meeting scheduled with my advisors and I feel like I should be more prepared for when I meet them to make it really worth while. I also need to get a hold of my cousin so I can throw my belongings in to her garage while I’m here for the following week as my bed can’t simply stay in the back of my truck. Its a nice bed, it will get stolen, or rained on. Whichever comes first.
I realize right now, that I’m going to end this blog, and jump into bed and pick up the book I’m reading. And that I’m going to read for a while, and then I will take 2 hrs to get to sleep and then I will be cranky that I woke up too late tomorrow and the vicious cycle repeats itself for another day. But its 12:38 right now, and I’m really not tired… nor do I actually want to do work right now.
The apt is a mess and one remaining roommate who has been awol for the last week still hasnt moved out. Which, does not make sense. Why not move out and be done with it rather than waiting til the last minute – especially since I could have been cleaning. Arse.
Ok. I’m going to try this bed/sleep thing now.
Ok, you KNEW I was addicted to The Brotherhood. You clearly saw that I was obsessed with it. So not my fault! (But aren’t they great? I wrote about them over at BlogHer…I’m so going to need therapy at the end of the year.)
As for the sleeping thing….what about yoga? I have a dvd that has three 20 minute workouts on it. One of them is an “end of the day” workout. It helped me set up a routine when I was having a really hard time sleeping. It helped me through some rough patches. Of course….I haven’t done it in ages.