Argh, yesterday was another rollercoaster day for me. Complete with a little bit of crying, screaming, relief and sickness.
Friday was listed for me as "3 days to go" until my defense in the morning. Until I talked with my co-advisor (I've got two, how lucky?) who wished to delay my defense date. Now, you can look at this in two ways. 1) Whoo! I've got more time! I don't have to stress out this weekend. yeah! OR 2) Crap, what have I not done yet? I'm failing? I've been working on this for 2 months (2 years) and I've STILL not GOT IT?!! FUCK!?!.
In comes, tears, frustration, anger, emptiness, etc. And I still had to meet with said co-advisor at noon to go over my talk of what would have been given on Monday. Now, to make this all clear. I would have to say that I was the catalyst for changing the date. I think that co-advisor 1 spoke to co-advisor 2 and expressed my concern of new comments on new draft. Anyhow.
At noon, I proceeded to go through the talk I had prepared… talked some things out, rearranged some things, add, delete, etc. By 4 oclock, I was feeling much better. The deal was made that I would now be able to make edits to the thesis based on what was discussed while editing the talk. I would add/drop some items. I would now defend the edited discussion on Friday, June 16th at 2pm.
Rollercoaster has stopped. Exit.
Last night I went over to Nina's to walk a movie. While picking out a movie (In Her Shoes) I seen the beautiful sign that says DVDs $5! I ended up leaving with 1 rented and 3 purchased (Million Dollar Baby, Starsky and Hutch and Mona Lisa Smile). How bad. But I was told to relax this weekend. And I shall…watch movies and knit that baby blanket!
But now, I must work on either the thesis or the talk. For today is now 5 days to go!
